Hi, I'm Cesilie Marie. Norwegian.  

"If I ever get around to living. It's gonna be just like I dreamed. I'm gonna take the love I'm given and set it free.

If I ever get around to living. I'll take the end of every day. Tie it up to every morning and sail away.

On a sailboat I am slowly floating nowhere. Lost the memories of where I am and why.

Black ocean churning, a million stars are burning. Planetariums were right about the sky."

- John Mayer

❝You have to learn that not everything has a solution that day, you know. I think that’s part of the thing about growing up is that certain things are not gonna be figured out today and that you may have to go to sleep, with two or three knots in your head, and there’s nothing wrong with that and they will get figured out.❞
(—— John Mayer

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❝I think we live in a time now where people are trying to decode things and I think that’s ridiculous. Although maybe they always did and I’m just picking up the wrong part of history but I feel like there’s so much— doing anything other than listening to it. As if abstract thinking is just completely dead, the idea that you could just listen to an abstract idea instead of saying ‘What’s that for? What’s that about? Who’s that to?’ I write e-mails to people, I don’t write songs to people. I’ll call people on the phone if I have a question, or I’ll write a farewell letter, I’m not gonna write a song, ‘cause if I wrote it in a song there’s a chance that person wouldn’t understand it was for them, right? I mean, I’m a pretty explicit guy so I would much rather write the farewell letter, it’s easier that way and it doesn’t have to rhyme.❞
(—— John Mayer)

“The equipment that you need to put up with all that stuff [paparazzi/media] and still go to sleep at night, is just far too expensive because you lose all these other sensitives. So for instance, there was a day in my life where I could walk through LAX after landing and have 15-20 people popping off flashes and yelling things at me, and my heart rate wouldn’t rise. But there was a part of me that was dead. A certain function, a certain thoughtfulness that was gone to prepare for that. You begin calibrating yourself for that amount of energy, and to do that you need to sort of be callous to everything. You’re basically trying to overcome fight or flight. Fight or flight is a response, it’s based off of being sensitive to your environment. And so I became very insensitive to the environment that I was in, which is why I didn’t write as deep as I could’ve or had before, because most of my faculties were devoted to making sense out of senseless things, right.

So now, I’m extremely sensitive, I just don’t put myself in those situations anymore. But when I do pass through, and now it’s not 12 or 20, there might be three of four, whatever, I get nervous. I sweat, and I get anxious, and I flip out a little bit. And I think that’s the way you’re supposed to be, ‘cause that is a little weird, you know. And then five, ten minutes later, I’m not flipped out anymore and I’m back to being sensitive. And I think that’s the way, again as a writer, you have to have things laid out. You just have to be able to feel things, even if that every once in a while is ‘Woah, that guy was in my face!’ because there’s a lot of people in Hollywood who have to do that every day, and they have to develop a construct for that, you know. And I just think, it’s one or the other. You’re not gonna be able to be chased down the street and then go behind a microphone and sing ‘Shadow Days’. They’re not gonna happen on the same day.” — John Mayer, NPR interview, 2012. 


❝When it came time to do these interviews where I had nothing to say, I was going through a time in my life where I didn’t really want to share what was going on, but I didn’t want to be boring. I got in the worst trouble ever, over and over again in my life from the time I was four ‘til two years ago, because I didn’t want to be boring. And I remember thinking to myself, ‘Well this is Rolling Stone, we gotta give a Rolling Stone interview’ and that’s the miscalculation. Because the only thing you have to do is to be honest, but I wasn’t prepared to be honest, but I knew that I had to be open. So I was open but not honest. And I think when you’re open and honest it’s great, when you’re just open ‘cause you think you need to be but not honest, then you start sort of free associating garbage, you know what I mean?❞
(—— John Mayer (All Things Considered Interview.)

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❝I’m the kinda guy, I’m always gonna need new colors to paint with. And it makes it difficult on, I think like a emotional or whatever— like commercial side, because you’re not really quite sure what another of my records is gonna sound like, so it’s kinda like starting over again with an artist. It’s not like you can just put the next record out by me and people go ‘Oh, that’s Mayer, cool.’ I like being sort of the author of many different types of books, but the tone of my writing is kind of the fingerprint.❞
(—— John Mayer (2012.)

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❝I got into music not because I wanted to traditionally be liked, it wasn’t my first goal to be liked. I got into writing music because I wanted to be understood. And what I found in my life is that it’s at least better to be understood and still not liked than liked and not understood. I promise you that.❞
(—— John Mayer)

❝If you go to a party, and you leave that party after speaking with somebody and on the way home you feel itchy, like ‘I don’t know, ugh, I just can’t.’ No, they’re an asshole. You’re fine. People should make other people feel alright and feel good, and if you end up feeling like ‘I must not be good enough…’
I promise you, you’re good enough.❞
(—— John Mayer

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❝This is a song about time and the passage of time, getting older. Making peace with it. Making friends with it. I still kick and scream, and that’s why I still play this song. It’s called “Stop This Train.❞
(—— John Mayer)

❝That’s a question that’s gonna make this guy cry… [every girl going ‘aw’] Uhm, my mother is incredibly intelligent, like whip smart. She could tell you that the sky was green and by the end of two minutes you’d be like ‘It’s green!’ You know, incredibly—I get all of my articulation from my mom. My mother, literally—I mean, probably hundreds of times at the dinner table trying to come up with the right word, my mother would tell me the definition and then get so uneasy that she hadn’t given me the correct definition that she would get up from the dinner table, get a dictionary, bring it back to the dinner table and go ‘No, it’s a good question, I’m not entirely sure.’ And I was like ‘I’m sorry I asked’, but I was never sorry I asked, you know. I was never sorry that I asked what the difference between lethal and fatal was. [crowd laughs] I know, but that was one of the biggest debates of my life! What is the difference between lethal and fatal? The answer is, lethal is capable of killing you. Fatal is as is true in the word fate, it does kill you. So I just remember being at the dinner table and that was where you gotta be smart, you know. Like, even still. My mother told me always; specific. But really, you know, even if the Mayer boys knew exactly how to attack one and other, it was always really specific. My mother would always say the same thing, she always said ‘You’re very mild.’ ‘He’s always been a mild child. Never fighting, never getting into trouble, always just mild.’ My mother would say that the best thing about me was that I was mild… [shrugs shoulders, smiles and the crowd laughs] Which I can hold on to now…❞
(—— John Mayer (MCC Q&A.)

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❝If I can successfully maneuver through a rock and roll lifestyle, with all of my heart. Then one day, I would enjoy the irony of standing on stage singing about when I was back in my early thirties and I was working off by half of my heart, with some beautiful giggling little fat baby boy or girl, with the big concert headphones on by the side of the stage. That would be fun. It would be fun for me to sing “Half of My Heart” like an older leather-bound first edition book.❞
(—— John Mayer

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❝Somebody asked me backstage tonight when I was meeting some fans, a woman asked me, and she said ‘My son is going into music, he wants to play guitar and he’s not in school right now. What advice do you have for him?’ And I said ‘It all looks completely stupid until you make it. And then once you make it, everything you did looks totally wise.’ And if I hadn’t made it, and I wouldn’t have made it if it wasn’t for you, so this includes because of you. If I hadn’t made it, everything in my life would’ve looked so stupid. You guys saved me. Thank you so much. Thank you.❞
(—— John Mayer

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❝It’s really fun to stand on such a big stage, playing a song I wrote in a college dorm in 1998. We’re all the same people… That’s the beautiful part about having a new record, four studio albums deep. Everyone’s talking about ‘Well, you’re a different man, you’ve changed.’ No, same boy… And I had this beautiful moment on Christmas Day, I was with my dad, and we were having dinner at the place that he lives and he lives at a place with a lot of other older people. And if you really get an older person around, and you really talk to them like a person and not like an elderly person, they will tell you some serious shit. I’m not gonna say this line you all want me to say, which is that the elderly are our precious natural resource, but they’re people, it’s like, you’re the same soul moving through and your body changes, that’s about it. I’m 32 years old, you know what that means? I’ve been 22 for 10 damn years. But to have somebody in their 80’s sit there. They’re in an 80 year old shell. You’ve got the same body, talking to somebody in their 80’s, and they’re looking at you dead in the eye, not like an 80 year old person, like a person and they’re like ‘I’m the same dude. I’m the same dude I was when I was 14…’ That’s an unbelievable lesson that I learned that day. The point is, I have this on a very small scale, I get to play this song and I get to shake hands with that crazy little kid who said that he wanted to run through the halls of his high school.❞
(—— John Mayer (Before playing “No Such Thing”.))

❝Sometimes I listen to it and I think it’s really sad, and sometimes I listen to it and I think it’s really uplifting, and I think that it’s kinda cool that it’s a Swiss army song. You can hand it to somebody and whether they themselves are going through something or they know someone who’s going through something… It’s really bittersweet, and it’s also really simple. I think a lot of tunes on this record I’m just simplifying and getting stronger through simplicity, and that was one of the most amazing times I’ve ever had writing a song. That was what was an intoxicating weekend. The music came very, very quickly, and I knew how good the music was, I knew how good the song could have been had I put really good lyrics on it, so I kind of disappeared for like a week in my house and didn’t go anywhere. I knew that it would’ve been worth it if I stayed in my house that long. And it was a trip to a supermarket that I came up with ‘Pain throws your heart to the ground, love turns the whole thing around.’ And from there, it’s like getting into an orange, like I finally dug into it and I could peel it away, and I kind of wrote the song in my head at the supermarket. I must’ve looked crazy ‘cause I walked around the whole place with an empty cart for like 90 minutes. You know the way you stare at stuff when you were a kid and you were about to steal something? I looked like I was casing the joint, but I was really writing “The Heart of Life”.❞
(—— John Mayer

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❝He thought me some really impressive things that I still think about to this day. I remember he said to me, two things, he said ‘just keep showing up to the party, you just keep showing up to the party and it’s all worth it in the end.’ And the other thing he said to me was ‘greatness is communicated in everything you do.’ And that was the moment when I—I’d kinda always had that feeling but I decided that that was the truth. That everything from an album cover to the way you carry yourself, it’s really interesting, everything matters.❞
(—— John Mayer on Steve Jobs.

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❝You ever tell somebody that you never ever want to talk to them again in the most painfully explicit terms ever, only to turn around and check your voice mail about twenty times a day just to see if maybe, maybe she really got the true message and the whole ‘fuck off’ thing was like ‘but try me again.’ But try me in about five minutes.❞
(—— John Mayer)